Habakkuk's Prayer

Though the fig tree does not bud
and there are no grapes on the vines,
through the olive crop fails
and the fields produce no food,
though there are no sheep in the pen
and no cattle in the stalls,
yet I will rejoice in the Lord,
I will be joyful in God my Savior.

The Sovereign Lord is my strength;
He makes my feet like the feet of a deer,
he enables me to tread on the heights.

Habakkuk 3:17-19

Despite circumstances and concerns and troubles, God is my Father and I rejoice in Him.

Disciples

Disciplines for the Journey
Henri J. M. Nouwen

Are there any disciplines to keep us moving from dividing power to uniting power, from destructive power to healing power, from paralyzing power to enabling power? Let me suggest three disciplines that can help us look from above with the eyes of God:

The first discipline is to focus continually on the poor in this world. We must keep asking ourselves: Where are the men, women and children who are waiting for us to reach out to them? Poverty in all its forms--physical, intellectual and emotional--is not decreasing. On the contrary, the poor are everywhere around us. As the powers of darkness show their hideous intentions with increasing crudeness, the weeping of the poor becomes louder and their misery more visible. We have to keep listening. We have to keep looking.
The second discipline is to trust that God will truly care for the poor that are given to us. We will have the financial, emotional and physical support we need, when we need it, and to the degree that we need it. I am convinced that there is a large body of people ready to help with money, time and talent. But that body will remain invisible unless we dare to take new risks. If we want to have all our bases covered before we act, nothing exciting will happen. But if we dare to take a few crazy risks because God asks us to do so, many doors, which we didn't even know existed, will be opened for us.
The third discipline is the hardest one. It is the discipline of being surprised, not by suffering, but by joy.... There is suffering ahead of us, immense suffering, a suffering that will continue to tempt us to think that we have chosen the wrong road and that others were more shrewd than we. But don't be surprised by pain. Be surprised by joy. Be surprised by the little flower that shows its beauty in the midst of a barren desert. And be surprised by the immense healing power that keeps bursting forth like a spring of fresh water from the depth of our pain.
With an eye focused on the poor, a heart trusting that we will get what we need, and a spirit always surprised by joy, we will be truly powerful. We will walk through this valley of darkness performing miracles because it is God's power that will go out from us wherever we go and whomever we meet.

A Living House

Beholding You beauty is all that I long for,
to worship You Jesus is my sole desire,
for this very heart You have shaped for Your pleasure,
purposed to lift Your name higher.

I am Your servant
come to bring You glory,
as is fit for the work of Your hands.

Now unto the Lamb who sits on the throne,
be glory and honor and praise.

There is not one thing in this world that is better than our Father in Heaven.

"Imagine yourself as a living house. God comes in to rebuild that house. At first, perhaps, you can understand what He is doing. He is getting the drains right and stopping the leaks in the roof and so on; you knew that those jobs needed doing and so you are not surprised. But presently He starts knocking the house about in a way that hurts abominably and does not seem to make any sense. What on earth is He up to? The explanation is that He is building quite a different house from the one you thought of - throwing out a new wing here, putting on an extra floor there, running up towers, making courtyards. You thought you were being made into a decent little cottage: but He is building a palace. He intends to come and live in it Himself."
— C.S. Lewis (Mere Christianity)

sunshine

Today is a beautiful day outside, and I am sitting inside on the computer! Something is wrong with this picture.

My friend introduced me to The Civil Wars and I have fallen in love.




mmmm, love it

and
I WANT TO BE A MODEL

try again

so, it's been over a year since I last posted on this blog.
guess I will try again, and see how far I get.

Spring semester of school is nearing it's end, and the realization that by this time next year I will be completing my internship and nearing graduation is honestly frightening, but also exciting.
life is full of experiences, whether they be dull or bright, or mundane or rare.

God is good
and I am trying to keep that memo in my mind and in my heart.


This is a picture of houses in Guatemala that are right next to the dump. I miss this beautiful country, and the beautiful people. God showed me a lot during my one week stay here, and I hope I never forget how truly blessed I am.

reading

I am currently reading this book and have found tons of lovely quotes.
Here are a few of Morrie's "bite-sized philosophies"

Accept what you are able to do and what you are not able to do;
Accept the past as past, without denying or discarding it;
Learn to forgive yourselves and to forgive others;
Don't assume it's too late to get involved.

I highly recommend the book. I am only on page 48, and it has already made me laugh, cry and grin like a little girl.

high & low

my boyfriend always asks me my high and low of the day.

today would be: the beautiful sun and chocolate ice cream. and zits.




i wish i was at the beach